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Review of I Think This Is the Closest to How the Footage Looked

Poster for I Think This Is the Closest to How the Footage LookedWhen you are grieving your usual thought processes and mental models can break down. This can result in broken up speech. This was expertly reenacted in the short film about a double loss. The speech pattern was so jagged that even my six year old daughter could read the subtitles of the whole 9 minute long movie. In retrospect I shouldn’t have allowed her to watch a movie a son made about his mother’s death. But my darling walked in my office as I was watching it and her eyes hungry for TV and new skill to read faster and faster latched onto my screen.

I had to pause a few times towards the end to explain her the editing technique. As what we were watching was the repeated rewinding of a videotape, alternating between blue screen a few second segment of aforementioned video. It was a powerful and realistic depiction of how one might try to keep the lost person(‘s memory) alive, by looking at a footage of her. It wasn’t the only screen for which the best word is powerful. The whole movie is made up from strong visual and auditory signals, that are super-realistic, capturing and transmitting the strongest of emotions, despite and because of  showing mostly ordinary objects.

The old-fashioned coffee grinder represented the father, the half-used toothpaste(?) tube the broken mother, the two-sided latch the son, they are all clear symbolic choices that don’t need a lot of analysis. The simple story is told form the son’s perspective. SPOILER: He is trying to recreate with these objects the previous evening’s events, when his mother stopped being. (My daughter had to ask back while watching what “mother no more” means. It was hard on me having to explain it to her.) The last footage ever made of the mother was lost due to negligence, or you prefer to lack of communication between father and son: the next morning the father videoed the empty space the mother left on the home, not knowing that the previous night the son watched the previous night’s footage in the camera and left the tape at the beginning of the footage.

It is a masterful short film in its minimalist direction, heart-wrenching story and narration. It will make you appreciate both life and the footage you may have after a loss.

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